The story so far.

I figured a plan out, to continue working and trying to figure out what how to get out of the situation I'm in. I ended up leaving my precious cats at hippie's house for now. It started renting a room in St. Pete where I couldn't bring them but there's also a snag. I fell behind on my storage unit payments. The paycheck that I got which helped me get the same p I was going to originally use to catch up. But sadly I fell even further behind because of the car situation. I got to figure something else out right? I figure another month of being behind and catching up on everything. Maybe I'll be able finally get a place, get the car running and bring you everything from the other side of stay soon. Over to here. And have my cats in a place with me and I'm just tired of living like this. Tired of always being behind. I'm sick and tired of having to take Uber and spending fucking $200 off every paycheck. It's a lot of fucking money. Living room St. Pete the people around me view me differently than the people back in Palm Coast. Do y'all think I have something special to give to the world that I'm really intelligent even though I don't believe it anymore? This one dude. Ryan thinks I should become a professor and teach history. Maybe he's right. I don't know. All I know is what's in front of me and it's bleak as hell. It's hard as hell. I'm not liking it. Took a gamble on something. Made the wrong choice but now I'm here. I don't know what God 's idea is for me, no matter what I have to follow it through. On another note, my cousin did come through with a little money $30 which to me is like super fucking pathetic. Proving to me that no matter what I'm alone and I have to do this alone. If I ever make it big if I ever make a lot of money and anybody from my family and I don't give a damn this from the fresnel side. The Rodriguez side of the rainbow side comes a knocking Mike slam the fucking door in their face and tell him to fuck off. Anyway. That's my report close to my birthday which is fucking depressing too. But what can you do? This is Scotty signing off. 

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