Get busy living or get busy Dying.
So around April a check was sent to me 2300 bucks. If I had gotten the check then my car would have been running and I would have had a second job during that time. But instead I got it in August then everything falls apart afterwards. Lost both My MINI and the Yota. Lost half of everything I own. I am in the dark trying to live the life I want to live. But all I ever do is fuck it all up. I am so fucking alone. I keep thinking about all the people I have put in pedestals, and later they become the opposite of what my thoughts about them are. It's like no one really likes me and I am the one who has to put in the effort into any and all relationships. I am exhausted from being me. I feel as if I am a failed personality. I no longer know what to do.