Thoughts in the moment.

 Currently I am basically stuck. I had to ask a cousin for help with the situation I am in. I do not know if they will help, but I am feeling fear and the bible says not to be afraid. I do not know what to do. I honestly don't. This and everything is now in Gods hands. 

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