What does God want to do for me.

 When I was younger I asked god for wisdom. I wanted to be as wise at those great men that had come before like Grant,  Marcus Aurelius or even Solomon. I did not ask for power or greatness. I think I asked God for the wrong thing. Maybe I should have asked for riches and power. Sadly the wisdom I got seems useless. To many people I am a fool. a loser. I don't know what God wants with me and why he has kept me around when better people have passed on. All I do is piss people off. I don't know anymore. I wish I could understand his plan for me. Because I am scared and tired.