The event that changed everything, my stroke.

 The most frustrating thing about my life changing event is the lack of empathy and understanding from people about what you are going through. Also how quickly people abandon you when you are at your lowest. Shows you the true face of individual humanity and that the selfish nature we are told to avoid is the correct nature to be. It is what you lose that really hurts. The struggle to regain the life you lose the attempt to find some level of normalcy. only to find out the way you were can never really be ever again. Honestly the most hurtful thing is the abandonment by people who you thought were your friends. You figure out that the favors and sacrifice's you made for those people was at best a waste of energy.  That you should ultimately do for you. Helping others is the great mistake that will cost you. I am not my Father or my Grandfather who people loved. I am someone people love to hate. The person people seem to enjoy watching their downfall. What I need to be is 100% for me. Be the selfish person I truly am. 

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