Is this all I am destined for?

 Currently living on someone else's couch. A person I thought was a friend, but I am starting to think other wise. I wonder what is Gods plan for me. Am I that loser everyone expected me to be? Since I have had my stroke all I have done is piss everyone else around me off. People are happy to point out my faults. More like excited. I am no longer comfortable where I am in this moment. I also have the IRS coming aftter me. I currently Have little money left and no income. To say I am not scared would be a lie. The Bible says to trust in the Lord and have no fear, but while I do trust in Jesus Christ, I am still scared, because I feel abandoned. I am not at all a good person. It seems like nothing I do is socially acceptable to anyone. Heck I keep my headphones on most of the time I go out. Today I went to lunch with Aaron. Spoke Political, he is a conservative, but he was shocked by what I believe and said. I am in a vulnerable place. I wish I could get revenge on everyone who has done me wrong. But I am never in any power to do that.